So……I think it happened. You know, that thing that you get warned about when you start to transition your hobby into a business. The thing where you burn yourself out and kind of loose sight of what the point was to begin with. Yeah, that thing. But the beauty of it happening, is it’s forced me to take a step back and regroup a little before I could even consider moving on again. So maybe you noticed a shift, maybe you didn’t (hopefully the latter) but I certainly did and so here I am just coming back from shutting everything down and am sorting thru my supplies, sketches and notes. Buzzing with inspiration and clearing out the cobweb of ideas I let go stale and I am getting excited again. The biggest realization that I’ve had was that I am a designer by nature, I love to create things. But even more than just making something from a pattern or blank pallet, I love to ReCreate things. In fact that is where my much of my personal style comes from. Taking preexisting items and giving them a new life and often times a new shape entirely.
Denim Bustier from the Legs of Jeans
I started as a kid with my mom behind the machine and me draping, gathering and holding things up to myself in the mirror, then I would hand it off to her and she would make it real. In middle school I would thrift clothes to alter with my girlfriends and in my early 20′s I slowly started teaching myself how to sew. Tearing apart jackets and making them into skirts. Using over sized shirts and turning them into dresses. Snipping and stitching pieces of one thing to the parts of another. Now lets not get into details about what those seams looked like, but I can honestly say that learning how to create things for myself changed how I saw everything and it stretched my imagination and style and really changed what I saw for myself and my future. It really opened my eyes to living a more independent and creative life all together. Eventually I started a blog about it. It was called The reFind Rebel and it was all about ‘using what you have to have what you want’.
Use what you have to have what you want,
Live Luxuriously within your means
stand out without standing apart.
I would dig through the racks at thrift stores and find things to re purpose, & post diy projects for simple reworked clothes, accessories and home decor. I was so clear in my vision and my genuine hope to inspire. I was fearless and uninhibited about what I would attempt to do despite any clue about how to do it. So much growth happened for me then.
It was then that I learned about photography and bought my first SLR camera so that I could take better photos for my blog. I learned about working with websites, posting YouTube videos and started my first Etsy shop. I was on fire with wanting to share how empowered I felt by making things for myself. By expressing what was on the inside through the way I looked on the outside. By having one of a kind designs and doing it all by using second hand and vintage materials. By refusing to succumb to the pressure to keep up with all the latest trends when most of them I wasn’t interested in anyway. But most of all I wanted to feel connected with other creative people and share with each other what we knew. Eventually all of it led into GutsGlamGlory and looking at it now it’s all been a whirlwind really but I could not be more humbled by the support of customers and friends nor more inspired than by the incredibly talented artists/desingers I have come to know. And now, after having taken some time away to recharge and heal my weary bones I am even more clear than I was before about the work that I want to do together.
So here is a little update full of big things.
1. I have decided to take a break from my full time career as a Licensed Massage Therapist. This has a been a big and luminous decision as I would not at all be who I am today without having had these last seven years of experiences and relationships. And although it is very likely that I will return to it at some point, I know that right now in order to become who I want to be, creating with you needs to be my focus. So out of the darkness and into the light I come….literally.
2. I am resurrecting The reFind Rebel. I have already created a place on this website for her and have projects ready to share. I am so excited to get back to having the time to seek out the things that are ready to live again. To be drawn in by a detail and then tearing the rest apart, turning it upside down, taking it in, adding on, painting over it and stitching it back together again. Being in mad scientist mode is euphoric for me and I always love (and sometimes laugh) at the Frankenstein-esque results. Eventually I would love to see a whole community of reFind Rebels, sharing our projects and ideas for ‘using what we have to have what we want’. I know there are many of you who have also been doing this for so long that I know there is plenty to share so submissions can start anytime, all you would need to do is send over some photos of something you recreated and if you’d like to include a little information about what inspired you to do it that would be great. Ideally there would be a before photo of the things you used towards your finished work, but I am so bad at remembering to even do this myself. Just email your entries to email@example.com so I can post them to the site.
3. I am getting help with GutsGlamGlory! The formal announcement for this will come when the details are in order, but in order to continue to grow I know that I need help. I probably could have used it the most BEFORE I quit my day job instead of working around the clock to keep up with everything myself, but hindsight is tricky that way. I guess maybe a part of me has just been in disbelief that the things I make would be interesting or desirable to any one but myself and just figured that one day I would wake up from this dream, so thank you to the hundreds of you who have crushed that limiting thinking for me through your support, purchases and friendship. Help will allow me to serve you better via email and special requests, it will provide me time to create new designs and best of all it will help me to actually carry a stock of things rather than keeping such limited runs of you favorite things.
4. Last but not least, I have relocated to New York City and I am beyond excited about what can come of this. I am still wide eyed and have so so much to learn, but it’s been a long time coming for me personally to make a move like this and it can only help what I am trying to do with you too. So if you’re in the area, reach out. xo
So there you have it, the latest updates in my creative life. Thanks for reading and I can’t wait to share more together.